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The I’s Have It [31 Days of Mental-Pause]

Scrolling through my facebook feed just now, minus the baseball news,  all that’s there is  a lot of posts starting with “I.”

I want

I need

I did

I was

I will

I can

I don’t

I, I, I, I…

Two verses come to mind:

 

Galatians 2:20

I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live;

yet not I,

but Christ lives in me:

and the life which I now live in the flesh

I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

Exodus 3:13-14

And Moses said unto God, Behold, when I come unto the children of Israel, and shall say unto them, The God of your fathers hath sent me unto you; and they shall say to me, What is his name? what shall I say unto them? And God said unto Moses,

I AM THAT I AM:

and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel,

I AM

hath sent me unto you.

We are a needy people. God is our I AM. Whatever our own current  “I…” statement includes, God is still and will always be, I AM.

Deceived, Lovingly [31 Days]

 

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When you teach school, especially English in the upper grades, it’s like you’re on high-alert for things like plagiarism, and order-or logical thought in the written presentation.  The (many) times I was given a paper to grade that wasn’t written in context of one thing or another (the assignment, the topic, the presentation), I had to tell my student that this wasn’t acceptable because although separately these things might make sense, the way they were put together and presented did not.  Sometimes it was no small thing for them to understand that the information had to be both accurate in word and  in order. Like misplaced or omitted punctuation, piecing together things that weren’t meant to be together changed everything, and not with integrity. It’s not an easy message to share, and I am ok with standing alone if need be, and I’d imagine my inbox won’t be filled with flowers and chocolates 😉  but it’s one that needs to be voiced and considered by those whose hearts are longing to know Christ.

Standing outside by my car after a long night of inservice, I remember once having a discussion with our pastor and principal regarding school, students, classes and the like. While referring to the way I handled my work and the people I worked with he said, “You’ve always been a seeker of truth.”

That statement was unusual in the way that it was at once both heavy and uplifting.  In itself, it was a hard truth. Life, in many situations and times, would have been (and be) so much simpler and easy going if I just would let things go that others don’t give a second thought to. But it’s not like I dissect every word; I don’t. However, it’s not uncommon for words to strike me as curious.  Curious in the weight of scales and balances of THE Truth vs Presented  truth.

I have piles of Bible Studies I bought based on their description, but once I dug in and started them, the Spirit didn’t give me freedom in what was written on the pages. So off on what could be considered a rabbit trail of sorts I’d go. Again, seeking the truth from God’s Word. His whole Word, not just a verse pulled out here and there. That is a red-flag to me. Very rarely can you take a single verse and have it stand alone, unless, of course, you’re having it meet your own food-for-thought.   (If you’re reading this and were part of my youth ministries of the past, you might realize that it was always just the Bible Troy and I used as our guide to discipleship and study. I’m so thankful to have had this in my life for so long and to learn from the Lord’s words what IS -and is not- truth.) It’s not just one popular author who falters on theology and scatters Scripture to make it say what SHE is saying –with a loving smile and all-no, we’re getting this more and more. Christian women are being deceived, lovingly, and they don’t even know it!

My heart sank as I read the words from a younger sister in Christ in reference to a group Bible study we were doing in a group together, she went on to explain her perspective,  “…so we don’t need anyone teaching us or telling us anything…”   Crazy! Doing a Bible study with older women who have grown in Christ over the years, and she wanted to be sure there would be no teaching  to her about  God  or His ways in our lives as Christian women.  Is there a place to learn from those women who have intentionally built their lives in Christ, who are seeking Him and walking with Him? I think  the answer is a resounding YES!  (Titus 2:3-5)  It was the first time I had seen such a strong rebelliousness in the heart of a grown woman.  The thing that hurt my heart the most was that here again was a woman who said she knew the Lord yet had not made it a practice in her own life to KNOW.  There she stood without any, or with very little, depth to the foundation of Christ, the Gospel and the Word.

We live in a world where Christian music overtakes the Bible as truth. As recently as this week I heard someone refer to music lyrics as something to be held in line with what God’s spirit penned. She didn’t even realize it!  Christian authors paint beautiful pictures fancied with all the prim and proper of what sounds good to our ears and is acceptable socially. Speakers are pretty to look at a a delight to hear. Parts of what they say -and say in a way that’s so easy to listen to and very easy to stand along side with-we’ve heard in sermons or read in scriptures–parts, and there enlies the problem.  We don’t know God’s Word enough to decipher which is which, and those of us who do are screaming on the inside: THAT’S NOT TRUTH.

In a most basic platform, it’s quite simple.  Like a paper written from an disorderly high school student, some of these highly favored Bible study author/speakers are taking things out of context-at times, right from the beginning of each segment.  When you see someone present God’s Word coupled with their thoughts, especially if they’ve isolated a verse here and a verse there, go read it in context. Who is it written to, what is it really about, and what’s the context?  Yes, that’s what that verse says and that’s even what that other verse says over there, but what is concluded her is…out of context, deceived lovingly. Simple stuff.  Most scripture is written in passages, go read them. Scripture supports scripture!  While this is a warning to those who are not solid in their theology and who twist scripture to make their point, there are great women authors who have studied God’s Word and who write Bible study guides wisely and well.  They might be low on bells and whistles, but it is real, solid truth where they’re concerned. One such author is Kay Arthur.  And there are others.

Now, remember that stack of Bible studies I referred to earlier? They’re in a discard pile. We’re on a slippery slope, Sisters. To know the Lord, to know His Word,  we have to be walking with no known sin in our lives and hearts,  in communion with Him through His Word  and allowing the Holy Spirit to work in and through us. In the meantime, wait on Him.

 

Romans 16: 17 Now I urge you, brethren, keep your eye on those who cause dissensions and hindrances contrary to the teaching which you learned, and turn away from them.  18 For such men are slaves, not of our Lord Christ but of their own appetites; and by their smooth and flattering speech they deceive the hearts of the unsuspecting.…

 

Red Moon Rises [31 Days of Mental-Pause]

Red Moon Rising

It was a beautiful night: Red moon rises!  I looked out tonight and all I saw was black skies and falling rain. Thankful, because we need it, but there’s something about seeing the moon as night falls. It’s almost like a night-cap on a hard day’s work.

Thinking about all that today involved suddenly made me tired, even without the moon’s notice!

At one point today I had the makings of homemade turkey stock for soup tonight and soap in a pan for dyi laundry detergent simmering on the stove. True. Simultaneously  I was cutting up carrots, unloading groceries, teaching math to my youngest, running laundry, making a new batch of homemade dishwasher detergent, waiting for the  cleaner to soak the tub to clean, sweeping up messes in the kitchen and soaking up dripping water from the leaking dishwasher…and freezer and answering emails, sending contracts etc. No wonder my mind is full!

I wrapped up most of those things, ran to the grocery store to buy noodels for said soup, came home and switched up the laundry, vacuumed both a new spot to move a dresser (sshhhh, don’t tell my husband, it’s a surprise?) as well as the old spot it was in (you know what they say about rabbits reproducing? They’ve got NOTHING on dust bunnies!), filled up trash bags with trash, piled even higher the stack of yard sale fodder, had dinner, played games with my family and watched Duck Dynasty together before bedtime prayers and tucking in of little Mr. Exhausted.

Though I’m nearing bedtime for myself, it’s been a good day.  If there’s something I enjoy more than working harder at home than I’ve ever worked anywhere and taking care of my husband and family, I don’t know what it is -unless of course it involves the beach someone! Thankful tonight for all God is to me. Striving to be all He wills for me to be.

Proverbs 31

10An excellent wife, who can find? For her worth is far above jewels.

11The heart of her husband trusts in her, And he will have no lack of gain.

30Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, [But] a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.

31Give her the product of her hands, And let her works praise her in the gates.

77 Days ’til Christmas [31 Days of Mental Pause]

I love Christmas!  I don’t know why, because it’s really not over the top around here. Yet, it’s with full anticipation that I look forward to its coming every year. Only 77 days ’til Christmas!!! (so sorry for those who duck and run until after Thanksgiving!)

Now, in full disclosure, there was a time I was over the top with all things Christmas. My husband and I collected an ornament from each special trip we took  together, and then when we had our first son we did the same for him. Our collection of ornaments is full of very memories of wonderful times and places. However, it has been YEARS since we’ve seen them.  After 10 years of Ma living here-and who had the energy for more than wake up and live during that decade?-we were thrilled to realize we actually could get away for a Christmas to Disney if we wanted to, and boy did we ever. Then, it became our favorite place to be right before Christmas and it was a wonderful way to spend our money for the holiday; who needs another toy, or baseball bat, or jewelry when we can have a week together smiling, laughing and making more memories? No one here! So, off we go every year we get the chance. Dorothy says there’s no place like home, but if you’re a Mickey Mouse lover, noone does Christmas like Disney does!

Disney Christmas

 

Unfortunately, it looks like this year we won’t be able to, but we’ll find other ways to enjoy our Christmas. Maybe this will be the time to get all those decorations out and go down memory lane together. Or, maybe the Lord will provide a way to be at Disney soon despite what looks to be impossible. Last year I had prayed for an upgrade when we got to our resort. We could afford a standard room at our favorite resort and I knew that it was possible to get upgraded, though it didn’t happen often and always out of the hands of the guest. If you want to see how that turned out, look HERE. It was AMAZING!

So tonight I’m over on pinterest looking for diy Christmas gifts and crafts as well as yummy recipes to add to the old faithful traditional ones. It’s time to start on all that because these days will go quickly by.  With all we do, we keep the excitement of Christmas on Jesus, on His story and on the fact that the Lord deserves our glory and thanks for His Son’s birth. Lord willing, we’ll have a wonderful Christmas 2013 at our home, no matter where or what that entails. I’m already excited!

I think I’ll be listening to a little mood music in the morning!

Who’s with me?

Day 7 When I Was Young [31 Days of Mental-Pause]

When I was young, do you remember that song? I think it’s by the Carpenters-yes, Yesterday Once More.

When I was young
I’d listen to the radio
Waitin’ for my favorite songs
When they played I’d sing along
It made me smile

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they’d gone

Read more: The Carpenters – Yesterday Once More Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Today I was thinking about things that are unique to me at this season of life.

Things like:

*favorite songs from long ago whose lyrics I never forget…and,

*why is the dog food in the fridge and the eggs in the pantry?

*how many times through the wash cycle  does it take to clean a load of clothes?

*how long has the shower been running?

*how many times can I heat up my morning cup of coffee?

*how can 3 hours have passed since I started something totally different than the last 12 things I’ve started, and yet none of them are done?

I think you get the picture, so many little things that make me pause and laugh every day, and then there are the things I’m most thankful for.

Things like:

*stuff-yeah, stuff isn’t worth much

*job/money and education status is pretty unimportant and while it wasn’t wasted time, how I would give anything to have the time driven toward more of either to be with,  to love, to laugh with, to sit, play or just cuddle with my family

*time truly waits for noone, as my friend says, Carpe diem!

*not what they do in life, but how they do life is what matters when it comes to my boys

*my husband’s idiocycracies , if he has any, only matter when I react wrongfully toward them/him

*I am not responsible for how I was raised, but I am for how my children are

*Growing in my relationship with the Lord through His Word, is more important that I would have ever imagined, to me, to my family and to others

*My house may never be model-ready ever again, and I am (mostly) ok with that

*honesty is so very important, and hidden motives are always revealed to someone one: be vulnerable, be open and be honest-even when you know others around you are not

The Carpenters reminded me of a song long ago, but more importantly it showed me how the years have changed my priorities in life.  I’m so thankful I’m “here” and not “there” any longer. Would I do things differently? Maybe. Our ‘biggest move’ was leaving our small home, small mortgage-both of which we loved-and selling it in favor of building a house that we could have my in-laws move into with us. We took care of Ma for 10 years, more than half of our marriage at the time. In nickels and dimes, yes, we would have loved to have changed things. But in life, in love and in caring for my aging and elderly mother in law, we did what the Lord tells us to do and that which is honorable. In that respect, we’d do it all again.   For now, I’ll be taking advantage of loving my family over any thing else that can be interjected in my life-and I’ve made changes in my days to do just that. They’re not here forever, and neither are we.

What legacy are you leaving to your children? What do they see as important, not by rites or rituals, but by authentic relationships? We’re teaching them how to live life.

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